1. It took us a long time to conceive. On my wedding dance floor you asked me to bring you back a present from the honeymoon. I brought you a handmade beautiful ceramic. You swiftly replied on reciept, ‘a baby darling, I meant a baby’.
2. We undertook IVF 6 years later - we were super lucky and the day I was allowed to do a pregnancy test was 7th September. I called you at six am and you hadn’t slept in anticipation. The tears and emotions were some of the strongest I’ve ever known for us all.
3. I drove three hours twice a week to ensure that you knew your grandchild but after six weeks you were too ill to know what was happening and the journeys had to be stopped. I know that all you wanted was to be a grandmother but cancer stopped that.
4. I learned that, whilst you didn’t always tell me, after your death, your friends told me constantly it was all you talked of, for both me and my siblings.
5. Ultimately I learned how to become a mother from you but without the guidance from you after nine months of your grandchild being alive. The guidance you gave resonates with me every day. I hope I can be a mum like you.
